Monday, February 2, 2009

My raw food background

Hey everyone,

Before I start posting more frequently on this blog, I should give you a little bit of my background first. That way, you know where I am coming from.

Today, I am not a 100% raw vegan. 

I WAS a raw vegan for about 10 months, starting in December 2006. I never felt so amazing in my life! My diet primarily was fruit for breakfast; salads, vegetables, and avocado for lunch; a piece of fruit, soaked raw almonds, and green pepper as snacks; and then more salad and vegetables for dinner. I did enjoy making raw desserts with agave nectar, nuts, and dates on occasion and the dehydrated foods I ate were typically flax crackers with fresh guacamole and sun-dried fruits like mangos, prunes, dates, and golden Hunza raisins.

One day, I just stopped being a raw vegan. It was very strange... I had been doing some daily meditations and I really was opening up spiritually, and then one meditation didn't 'sit well' with me (aka I became fearful) and that was when the raw vegan came to a halt. 

I felt horrible and guilty beyond belief. I soon became very embarrassed of who I was and I constantly compared myself to what I 'used to be.' I kept trying to get past the meditation with no success, so I eventually gave up the meditations all together. At that point, I fell into a deeper pit and I am still trying to free myself of it to this day.

Since eating cooked foods, I have became nauseous numerous times, my immune system has weakened, I have gained excess weight, my thinking is more irrational and cloudy, and I lack most of the confidence that I used to have.

This has been a huge sore point for me, and instead of letting this further get me down, I have decided to learn from this lesson, become stronger, make the changes I need to make, and thrive once again!

So this blog is going to help me to record my journey back into the raw vegan world and I hope to meet many interesting people during it. I will update this blog regularly, even when I fully get back on track.